In 2015, I started what would be a seven-year law school journey. I was a first-generation American student and the only person in my family who had completed high school and college. I was born three months prematurely with cerebral palsy, which is a condition that affects movement, coordination, and muscle tone. My condition impacts my mobility, and I use a power wheelchair to get around.
Disability and My Education
The law has always been a part of my life because I was born after the Americans with Disabilities Act (ADA) was passed. This piece of legislation impacted me greatly as a child because it gave me protections at school. Without these protections, I don’t think I would have become the lawyer that I am today. My experience is unique because my twin is not disabled. As I was growing up, it was hard for me not to notice the difference in treatment we experienced in accessing the same level and quality of education.
For example, my sister was able to ride the bus to school without any questions or paperwork. I needed a bus equipped with a wheelchair lift, so I rode the bus for Special Education kids. This was made possible under Section 504 of the Rehabilitation Act, which enabled a formal plan between my school and me so that I could get an education. ARD (admission, review, and dismissal) meetings and the resulting IEP (individualized education program) tailored certain aspects of my education so that I could succeed despite the barriers my disability presented. Every year, I had to demonstrate my eligibility as a student with a disability along with supporting medical documentation so that I could have access to a wheelchair-accessible desk, a bus with a lift, test accommodations, and more. I was the only person with a physical disability in mainstream courses, and I worked hard to ensure my success in honors and Advanced Placement courses. I have always struggled with writing by hand because my muscle tone and spasticity would often flare up, making me fatigued. I was a slow writer, and the neatness of my handwriting would decline as I took notes during class. Whenever I wrote, I would use shorthand in the hopes of lessening the amount of writing I had to do. I had difficulty managing my notes while simultaneously keeping up with the ongoing lesson. Taking notes from my classes’ required readings was a strenuous task, and I always had to plan well ahead to finish my notes before or at the deadline.
As I grew and developed into a young adult, I noticed that my disability itself was changing. Entering college with a disability was very different than high school—it was easier in some ways and harder in others. ARD meetings and IEPs no longer existed, and accommodation requests were required on a semester basis. Extensive medical documentation, my educational records, a disability evaluation from a neuropsychologist, and an assessment from an educational psychologist were needed to secure many of the same accommodations I had utilized throughout high school. I could not have achieved this if not for the assistance of Vocational Rehabilitation Services through the state, which I began working with at 16 years old.
Working with my Vocational Rehabilitation counselors, including Diane Henning, Paul Moon, and Audra Ressel, was fundamental in ensuring that I had my setup prepared in time for the first day of classes every semester. They helped me get acclimated to the Denton, Texas, area while I pursued a criminal justice degree at the University of North Texas. Their extensive knowledge of university policy and procedure helped in getting things done quicker than I probably could have done myself. The personal and professional guidance I got from them was invaluable at a time when I was still discovering what I wanted to do with my life.
I received an accommodation to take notes on a computer, and as my classes became more advanced, I found myself taking an average of 2,000 pages of notes per semester across my course load. Essays and thesis dissertations complete with cited research filled my days. I remember being buried in books, web pages, and various journals in the library space I made my home. I never felt comfortable asking for a deadline extension because I knew the general mentality around accommodations and the secrecy the stigma created. I spent countless hours working on memorization and repetition of key concepts. Following a course syllabus was essential to making sure that I completed readings and assignments on time, which I calendared as soon as possible. Syncing my calendar on my phone helped me plan out my time for various commitments. I did not like cramming too many tasks into my day, and I always built flexibility into my week for editing my writing.
Using a recorder allowed me to play back my classes so that I could refer to an earlier part of a lecture. As I had done throughout high school, I sacrificed sleep because it took me longer than other people to do things. Tasks such as getting my backpack together, dressing, and showering would take hours. Still, I needed assistance with meal preparation, tying my shoes, and doing my hair. I would wake up at five o’clock in the morning before my attendant arrived to help me with the tasks I couldn’t independently complete. I had to scout out routes to and from each class every semester—taking note of the sidewalks, ramps, and curb cuts so that I could get to class using my wheelchair. My university did have a campus bus, but it was often crowded. Seats on the bus could be flipped up, creating a space for my wheelchair, but overcrowding meant that there rarely was a bus that could readily accommodate me. Seating was on a first come, first served basis, and waiting for a bus that had the space to accommodate me took more time than simply using my chair. Google Maps helped me develop a rough idea of a path with its terrain view and pedestrian routing option.
I tracked the weather throughout the day, and I would schedule my transportation around the weather conditions, which meant that I often arrived early to my intended destination. Rainy weather posed a challenge because water and electronics do not mix, especially considering the sensitivity of my wheelchair joystick remote. I protected the remote by wrapping a grocery bag around it to make sure that water could not seep inside. Muddy areas were always annoying, as my wheelchair tires would leave a trail of mud wherever I went. Fallen tree branches, heavy brush, piles of litter, deep puddles, and uneven patches of pavement would interfere with the pedestrian aspect of my commute. Sidewalks in my area are not routinely maintained, so large craters would develop over time. The depth of a crater could vary, and wet conditions can easily create mud. Mushy mud and craters filled with water can be like quicksand for tires. Once traction is lost, it can be difficult to get the torque needed to get out without additional assistance.
Sometimes, I had no choice but to use the roadways like a car because the sidewalks were not usable. I always kept a watchful eye on my wheelchair’s battery level and was never without my phone, just in case something happened. I was fortunate that my sister also decided to attend the same university, and I could always call or text her if anything happened. The code that I developed with my friends in college involved texting one another to say that we had safely arrived back home; it was standard in a college town with weekly crime alerts. A new building or location that I was unfamiliar with also had to be scouted to make sure I knew where the access buttons were, along with what floor and where the nearest accessible bathroom or elevator was. I made sure to call ahead and ask about the information I needed relative to my accessibility needs, and I relied on input from others who were familiar with that location before going there myself. I avoided access buttons that didn’t work and used the ones that did. Areas with high foot traffic also helped because I could ask someone nearby to help open a door if I couldn’t open it myself. If I needed to be somewhere that was above the ground floor, I noted the location of the elevator on my phone, along with information about where I could find the emergency evacuation equipment in case it was needed. I convinced school officials in and outside the Office of Disability to create an Accessibility Report that relayed information about scheduled elevator outages and construction that could interfere with a travel route. Students could sign up and receive emails to plan accordingly.
My efforts and disability advocacy around campus led to my appointment on the school’s ADA committee, where I represented more than 2,000 students with various disabilities. I developed legislative and institutional policies that made the school more inclusive regarding disability needs. The policy initiatives I developed with the committee and as a senator in student government helped set the foundations for my eventual law school career, although I didn’t know it at the time.
I began speaking out after another student struck me with his pickup truck while I was on campus. I was crossing the street at an intersection when the distracted driver failed to yield. My wheelchair was totaled upon impact, and I spent a year trying to get a replacement chair. I had lost consciousness after the impact, and when I came to, I couldn’t recall where I was or what had happened. I came to with the driver and a woman standing over me—coincidentally, she was a nurse who had been driving by at the time I was struck. I couldn’t find my phone because it had been thrown somewhere.
The police station was about two buildings down, and an officer on foot had been passing through. The woman and I approached him for help, but he walked off because he was off the clock, he said. Eventually, the driver found my phone, and I called my sister, along with 911. I was in a lot of pain, and I knew my back wasn’t all right.
I had to get a lawyer involved because the driver kept changing his version of events. I am thankful that the driver was insured because months of extensive physical therapy were needed. The consultation with the attorney took about an hour while she answered my questions and explained how her fee was to be earned. I remember being deeply embarrassed about needing an attorney, let alone having to hire one. It felt unnatural to go to a system or institution to resolve an unambiguous issue, especially given how public the accident had been. I still had to go to classes in the first few weeks after the accident, and numerous people would stop me and ask about it. People contacted me over social media and volunteered to give witness statements. I ended up meeting with the university police chief to help improve officer responses after the report of an emergency event.
This experience exposed me to the mediation process, which was frustrating yet fascinating at the same time. I was aware that if mediation was unsuccessful, then I would be personally responsible for everything. I was shocked to discover that the two-mile ambulance ride I had taken to the hospital was billed out with three zeroes.
My attorney explained that inflated costs were common, and our mediation was spent with her on the phone wrangling to get the insurance company to pay more. The mediator was like a human telephone, relaying various offers from the insurance company. It felt like a ping-pong match because my attorney would have to reject each offer individually. After every rejected offer, the insurance company would increase their offer by a few hundred dollars. After two hours of this, my attorney proposed a minimum starting amount.
I also began lobbying city and school officials for greater safety measures to protect pedestrians on campus after I discovered that multiple bicyclists and pedestrians had also been struck on that same street. The street connected with the highway, and there was no clear signage warning drivers to slow down. I felt that better signage informing drivers that they were now entering campus would encourage them to be more mindful. I wanted a marked crosswalk and signage, but the city and school each said it wasn’t their responsibility—the boundary between the city and the school ran down the middle of that street, so the two sides were under different jurisdictions. Graduation came and went without any meaningful changes from the school or city, but these experiences did shape my desire to help others.
Navigating Law School
The difficulty of navigating law school as someone with a disability was compounded by the fact that I attended a new law school that tried to cater to aspiring attorneys by offering a nontraditional approach to legal education. I knew that I likely couldn’t move to another state because my support network and family were all based in Dallas. The location, affordability, and ability to be a part of something new were what attracted me to the University of North Texas at Dallas College of Law.
I attended interest meetings and other events when I first heard rumors about a public law school being built in the area. I held off on applying for what would have been the inaugural class at the urging of my professors, family, and friends. At the time, my school did not have a pre-law program, and the department was more oriented toward police work. My department had one professor who was a non-practicing lawyer, and the two other lawyers I encountered also did not practice and were in another department. I met with each lawyer to get different perspectives. Each person stressed the importance of the LSAT and its link to scholarship opportunities. Not much was said about law school itself, and looking back, it’s probably because the LSAT is such a major juncture point for so many people. Trying to get people to open up about their law school experience was difficult—I could sense discomfort around this topic, and the vagueness around it struck me as odd, but I didn’t think much of it at the time. I pressed on because, unlike my classmates, becoming a police officer or firefighter was out of the question for me. Also, I like theory concerning public policy, and I feel strongly about human rights. I wanted to be entrenched in international affairs and diplomacy. Most importantly, I wanted to use my mind and intelligence to develop or negotiate legal proposals as I had done during my time in student government.
I was assured by officials that I would be able to receive accommodations no matter where I ended up for law school; what ultimately persuaded me to attend law school in Dallas was the location. My parents and sister all had jobs that were tied to the area, and if I attended school elsewhere, they couldn’t move to be near me. Given how much they supported me, I knew that starting over in a new city wasn’t feasible. I still had the support of my Vocational Rehabilitation team, and together we developed a plan to ensure that I would graduate from law school.
Our school needed to demonstrate to the Texas Legislature and other key stakeholders that we really could succeed as a nontraditional law school. We signed our names as part of the historic experimental group, the second set of aspiring law students that formed the school at that time. We were all very aware that the University of North Texas’s status as a law school and our ability to take the Texas bar exam as it then existed were not absolute. Without official recognition, our school and its students could not pursue lives as working lawyers. The high stakes created a lot of pressure on each person who attended my school. My family made sure to mention it to everyone we informally knew—from the grocery store cashier who had been there since I was a child to the coffee shop staff who knew me as a regular visitor. Being vague and simply saying that I was in school just wasn’t enough because someone was sure to chime in with, “No, she’s in law school!” If I was asked about where I worked, I kept it vague by saying that I was a secretary or paralegal. Sure enough, a family member would add, “But she’s gonna be a lawyer,” and then further conversations would ensue about law school, how this person needed a lawyer, or some story about a sticky legal situation that had happened to him or her. Questions about law and pop culture nearly always came up about cases that had been highly publicized. Truth be told, I didn’t watch any news and knew very little about modern happenings as they were occurring because I was so focused on the LSAT.
All the planning in the world couldn’t prepare me for law school or the culture that existed at the time. Every lawyer I interacted with served as a model of what a lawyer should and shouldn’t be, both personally and professionally—even the “bad” ones. When I encountered systemic disability discrimination, I wanted to fight against it. I thought I could change the system by going to the people who implemented the system, but I was bounced around from one person to the next no matter how high up the chain I went. Or I got emails simply dismissing what I had said entirely. Meetings, forums, and emails that were both public and private were fruitless.
Things reached a tipping point after a professor publicly disclosed the nature of my accommodations. I don’t know whether there was a full or partial disclosure—I was never able to learn exactly what happened. I’m not sure why this happened or what led up to the disclosure.
Prior to the disclosure, I missed roughly five days of school after I had been hospitalized from a virus that was circulating in my community. On the day of the incident, I had gone to the emergency room because I was having complications after my hospitalization. I was racked with guilt about the class I was missing and those I had already missed because of my health. I remember rushing into the elevator where I ran into this professor—I was still wearing my emergency room wristband as the professor stepped inside before the elevator continued its course. I vaguely remember greeting the professor before rushing into an explanation about my absence that day. The professor stood there in silence before turning and getting off the elevator the second it opened. I only learned of the disclosure because students told me about it in bits and pieces. To say that I was utterly humiliated captures only some of what I felt when I found out about the incident.